Some days just suck.

sarettah · 09-28-2004

So, I'm sitting here at my desk looking at my "todo" list and realizing that it just doesn't matter. I have been working on the same database effort for 3 years now. It is slow and go, always, because of constant interruptions and constant fires to put out. The definition of the system is still "If I can think it, I want it to do it" which sucks as a definition. I have managed to automate a good portion of the system. I have managed to bring over 2/3's of our clients into the master database system with well over 90% of all processes being handled automatically. But it looks like we will never get to finish because the head asshole has decided that he can't sell the system anymore and now he wants to go out and sell the next picture in his head. He had agreed, when he last brought this up several months ago, to wait until we had a signed contract before developing the newest variation on his thoughts but now it looks like he does not want to wait until we have money coming in for it and instead wants us to switch focus right now and get to work on it.

You know, it sucks to never be able to complete a fucking project. Makes you feel like a failure coonstantly. It isn't that I don't have the skills or drive to bring it to fruition, it is the constant changing of priorities that keep things from getting finished. It seems to be a constant death march.

Worse yet is that it spills over to the rest of my life. I start working on my personal projects or contract projects and start feeling guilty that I am not working on the system here. I mean, after all, how can I be giving attention to those projects when this one isn't done. From there it becomes a domino effect, I start feeling guilty if I post on the boards because afterall, I should be working on the system or working on a contract project or whatever. Add into that that Jen needs attention from me for paper jewels/weekend jewelry in order to get her new wholesale version up. So, I end up feeling pretty much like a failure

29 domains, over 100K images available and nothing happening

fuck fuck fuck. I think I'll go home and go back to bed.

09-28-2004	#1
sarettah Stay Out Of The Box Want to see your own Advertising Here! Join Date: Oct 2002 Location: Lost in the ozone Posts: 10,318	So, I'm sitting here at my desk looking at my "todo" list and realizing that it just doesn't matter. I have been working on the same database effort for 3 years now. It is slow and go, always, because of constant interruptions and constant fires to put out. The definition of the system is still "If I can think it, I want it to do it" which sucks as a definition. I have managed to automate a good portion of the system. I have managed to bring over 2/3's of our clients into the master database system with well over 90% of all processes being handled automatically. But it looks like we will never get to finish because the head asshole has decided that he can't sell the system anymore and now he wants to go out and sell the next picture in his head. He had agreed, when he last brought this up several months ago, to wait until we had a signed contract before developing the newest variation on his thoughts but now it looks like he does not want to wait until we have money coming in for it and instead wants us to switch focus right now and get to work on it. You know, it sucks to never be able to complete a fucking project. Makes you feel like a failure coonstantly. It isn't that I don't have the skills or drive to bring it to fruition, it is the constant changing of priorities that keep things from getting finished. It seems to be a constant death march. Worse yet is that it spills over to the rest of my life. I start working on my personal projects or contract projects and start feeling guilty that I am not working on the system here. I mean, after all, how can I be giving attention to those projects when this one isn't done. From there it becomes a domino effect, I start feeling guilty if I post on the boards because afterall, I should be working on the system or working on a contract project or whatever. Add into that that Jen needs attention from me for paper jewels/weekend jewelry in order to get her new wholesale version up. So, I end up feeling pretty much like a failure 29 domains, over 100K images available and nothing happening fuck fuck fuck. I think I'll go home and go back to bed. __________________ Free Adult Webcams