[Dianna Vesta]

The last few days I’ve had something really heavy on my mind. It’s sexual, I suppose but also a serious topic. I was going to start a new thread but decide to make it part of sex adventure thread because in essence it really is about mind and body, right?



I’ve had an on and off again relationship with a woman who I am very much sexually attracted to. I can be damn pissed off, see her and get butterflies & pangs all over. The hottest fantasies I have involve this woman, HOWEVER we just don’t get along. There is so much sexual chemistry but we fight like crazy. There seems to be a constant power struggle.



I was talking to my son (adult) who is my best friend. I asked him what he thought about this because there was another woman I had this same type of relationship with many many moons ago in my 20’s. He said that maybe I am attracted to the conflict and struggle. I started thinking about this and I don’t think so, or am I wrong? I mean today my life is all about comfort and peace of mind. If anything I’ll avoid situations that I feel are complicated. Years ago I’d step up to any challenge and enjoy it but today my old ass only wants life’s easy pleasures.



I’m a complex creature who isn’t easily intrigued by someone. I don’t just look at a hot person and think, “Wow they are hot I want to fuck them”. I don’t really understand this chemistry connection I’ve got going on with this girl. When its good its damn hot but when its bad it’s living hell.



Anyone else experience this?